It's Not Depression. It's Disenchantment

The mental health crisis is real. The governMENTAL system is culpable.

It’s Not Depression. It’s Disenchantment

I remember the first time I went to a therapist. This was a trainee, I was on public assistance and I went in and spent a bit of time with this youngster, and he said - I think I want to put you in general anxiety disorder and classify you with depression. I said “No.” 

I told him then and there, I’m not afraid of everything, but I am afraid of the things that have happened to me, or are likely to happen to me because of my past experiences. I’m not “paranoid” of things that aren’t plausible. I’m afraid of things that have happened reoccurring. 

And IF I am depressed, I told him, it is because the system doesn’t work the way it claims. There is no equality. There is no fairness, and there is no justice in this system. So, NO. I am not “general anxiety disorder” or just “depressed.”

Today, after having been diagnosed with CPTSD and Social Communication Disorder, I see more clearly that depression is a handy tool to lump everyone into a place where their issues can be easily dismissed. “Oh, they’re just depressed.”

NO. No, no no, a thousand times NO. 

It’s disenchantment. I am disenchanted with the following partial list of things that we should be able to expect, and this is surely just the tip of the iceberg. For those fragile little snowflakes that can’t take the heat of a blinding light being shone on the inconsistencies in the system. you might want to run now before reading any further. I’m getting ready to rant.

The authoritarian state has failed to be equitable and fair. 

Hell, the state is the paramount abuser and cause of harms in my opinion. Does that mean I am anti-government? Well, I’m anti-governMENTAL control. And before I go any further, I am not self-defined as right wing or left wing, although someone reading this will classify me in the way that makes them feel comfortable. Fuck that. I’m me. The goalposts keep changing. The people who can reconcile changing goalposts are those who refuse to be defined as a static thing.

See, the state uses the fluidity of words to control the populace. Think about the practice of law. Bastiat points out that while doctors and engineers need complex words to describe their methods and ways, lawyers could conduct business in plain, easy to understand English (or whatever language they use as a first language), and yet, the practice of law is actually, in my professional opinion as an ADA Advocate, a disability that has been forced upon society. It is a language barrier creation, with the understanding and (most) use of legalese being reserved to lawyers. The entire practice of law is nothing more than words, as Bastiat reveals. 

The judicial system is due for re-classification as the “injustice” system, when judges can abuse disabled persons, and most states have laws that even if a judge acts maliciously in a court case, they have immunity. I never tire of saying that we will have a justice system when corrupt judges swing by the neck on courthouse square. It not only needs to be repeated, it needs to be effected.

The system has no accountability or accessibility.

There is no accountability, and the Supreme Court has enacted rulings that exacerbate the injustices of the system. From qualified immunity, which has absolutely no basis in the Constitution, to authorized deception for cops, which in and of itself causes a disability, as defined by the ADA, the system that is supposed to be accessible and fair, isn’t.

My daily routine is helping people that are discriminated against by the system on the basis of disability. The most frustrating and shocking part of this is that if I am involved in a court case, I can and do expect the judge on the case to discriminate, and believe that they can do it with immunity. (Not true, because Title II of the ADA pulls their immunity on ADA claims in federal court). It pisses the court off when I dare to come to the aid of the abused client. This is my disenchantment. People who demand to be called “your honor” have absolutely no honor, and are often reasonably classified as sociopathic sadists.

The system protects itself to the detriment of the populace.

I’ve recently turned my focus to bringing awareness of how the case Frazier v. Cupp causes a disability in the American populace. I say this because the Supreme Court, in determining that cops are authorized to “lie”  (their sugar coated term: “falsely told”), have created a physical and mental impairment that substantially limits the major life activities of communication and interacting with others. 

The tax assessor for your county doesn’t have a supreme court case that authorizes them to use deception. This goes equally for the mayor of your city, or your county commissioners, or the county water department, or the voter registrar. You have an expectation of honesty when these bureaucrats are involved, and yet the police have a loophole. They can lie to you while asking you to be honest with them. REALLY? This is a disability. Again, this dynamic creates a physical and/or mental impairment that substantially limits the major life activities of communication and interacting with others. Generally, no one practices lying to other people to gain a benefit. (While I understand that there are pathological liars, my point is that the police are trained to be pathological liars, which causes the disability.)

This loophole is added onto the adrenaline response, and many times there are people with other already existing disabilities, such as social communication disorder, or PTSD, or ASD, or TBI and the list goes on. 

Disenchantment. I’m supposed to trust a system that has built-in deception. Uh, NO.

This is a very abbreviated writing of what could be several books. Dr. Karin Huffer spent 30+ years of her life documenting legal abuse syndrome. She trained me, and there are limitless accounts of courts that, subject matter aside, do NOT allow equal access to the court for litigants with invisible disabilities.

I’ve continued to document this very thing. Today, as a matter of fact, I am standing by and not attending a hearing, because I needed, and was not provided ADA access. My client was also denied ADA access. The judge and the attorney for my client are apparently colluding to deny this ADA access, because the attorney is in over his head with this. I’m working on a video with this to come out soon. 

Do these things make me angry, or cause me to retreat into a reflective, discouraged place? Yes. But that’s not depression. That’s disenchantment. I’m done being lied to and told it’s “honorable” or “for my good.”

This article got held, and I was told by substack that I was suspended for breach of terms. I became angry because they never say exactly what one has done to breach the terms, or how, specifically the terms were supposedly breached. This is true for any social media platform.

Add to that the Supreme Court leak, that irreparably destroys any trust that may have been remaining - SCOTUS has arbitrarily (no constitutional source) created qualified immunity, endorsed cops lying and now they admit that Roe v. Wade should be nullified. There is no rule of law any longer. There is only the rule of survival.

With that said, I’m going to see 2000 Mules tonight, and I would also encourage everyone that is vaccinated to be proud of taking a genetic experiment that has a claimed rate of 12% efficacy. (Efficacy for what, exactly, I don’t know, but the Pfizer dump is a humdinger.) Your government is owned by bankers, pharmaceutical companies and other corporate interests.

I’m still intent on going through the process of applying the ADA to Frazier v. Cupp and other SCOTUS decisions that actually cause disability, but I’m more inclined to believe that I’m just seeking confirmation bias to be validated.

I’m disenchanted. And I’m not dead yet.