If you’re carrying the false belief system that you are unloveable,
If you’re carrying the false belief system that you’re unredeemable,
Or unworthy, or just plain “bad”,
When inside, ask yourself the source of the belief.
Ask for the redemption or cancellation of the belief.
Ask for love to flow into your life.
And wait for the answer.
You’ll have to issue some apologies. Maybe lots of them. Perhaps these will be met with silence. Maybe there won’t be any response for years, but if not, the important part is that you deal with this, and apologize. That presents possibility.
You’ll cry, perhaps buckets, at how ugly your belief systems caused you to act,
You’ll damn them to hell forever,
You’ll demand the reclamation of your blank slate, just as you had when you entered the world as an infant, so remarkably beautiful, precious, and full of potential.
Until someone else marked on you with their fear filters.
All control demands come from fear. Fear of loss of control, for one, but fear that the one being controlled will find out that control is a mental construct that is unsustainable when questioned.
Question the fuck out of it, until it turns back into love, awe, and potential for relationships that have MUTUAL reward.
But first, you have to love yourself.
And, after you work through this fear piece, you can, once again, see the beauty that has always been there.
I haven’t, for a long time, been able to look at family pictures, because of the pain and fear I’ve held for a long time. I’m confronting it, asking it why it is allowed to control me, and the results are just the residual of love.
Believe that you are able to be healed. Give yourself permission to heal and be redeemed, without the need for external approval, or any other external marker.
And just love yourself for a minute… or, the rest of your life.
I know that you can find you. If I can do this, anyone can.