PTSD DAD - a poem
I can’t say how sorry I am
I didn’t mean to be this way Just living’s been a struggle Each and every day.
From the first time that I saw your face
Till I draw my final breath
The love I have for you, my child
Is met with one regret
Please forgive me I gave it all I had
I tried to hold you close
Every time it turned out bad
I couldn’t set my mind free
My pain pushed you away from me
and deep inside every day I’m sad
You deserved more than a PTSD dad.
I tried to get the help I could
and you told me it’s too late
and when I wanted to connect
it seemed I always drew a blank
With self-doubt as my anchor
I never did set sail
Success always came knocking
on my locked door in hell
Please forgive me I gave it all I had
I tried to hold you close
Every time it turned out bad
I couldn’t set my mind free
My pain pushed you away from me
and deep inside every day I’m sad
You deserved more than a PTSD dad.
I’d love to have my family
To hold them and be held
To cry with them and laugh with them
Redeem life from this hell.
Please forgive me I gave it all I had
I tried to hold you close
Every time it turned out bad
I couldn’t set my mind free
My pain pushed you away from me
and deep inside every day I’m sad
You deserved more than a PTSD dad.
~ By Jay V. Shore 9-21-21